Monday, January 13, 2014

Perking Back Up

I've been doing fair to adjust to wearing glasses.  The large ones give me the headband headache sometimes.  Mostly because they have the super wrap around of doom to help them from slipping and to help me adjust to wearing glasses.
Swapping between my readers and regulars (especially during class sessions where I have to look across the room at a board and then down to my paper to take notes) is a real pain.  I end up with most of my hair everywhere even if it's been put up.
The thing that's been the worse honestly is my self-image.  I love how I look in my readers but my regulars have been bumming me out.  When I look in the mirror with them on, it seems like most of my flaws are accentuated.  Maybe it is just me but it's been a bother to me.  I don't even know if anyone can see or if it is just my insecurities giving me grief.  
The blue rims bringing too much attention to certain qualities.  The size encouraging emphasis of the negative aspect of another feature.  
I was browsing the web when I came across this picture:

I really needed something like this.  If this crocodile can feel beautiful as anything, then why can't I feel that way too?  
Maybe I'm not really, but I should at least stop letting it eat away at me.

Yeah I want to be a beautiful person inside and all, but when you pass a mirror  and you see every flaw magnified.  People want to feel not ugly.  Maybe not pretty, beautiful or gorgeous.  Just not ugly.  No one wants to feel that.
No one should feel that.


Update: Alligator artist continues to make life amazing with this.

Saturday, January 11, 2014

Ep. 1: The Rose Bride

Disclaimer:
This episode analysis(musing) contains spoilers.  This episode analysis skims over topics and doesn't go into huge detail because each detail is really worth it's own post.  This analysis does not cover every detail to analyze but ones that I have chosen to discuss.  Also, these are my opinions and nothing official.  You do not have to accept or agree with any of this.



"Bara no hanayome" (薔薇の花嫁) 
April 2, 1997
Duel song: When, Where, Who, Which
Duel theme: amitié - Friendship

We are introduced to Utena's backstory of being so moved by her prince that she vowed to become a prince herself.  But was that really such a good idea?  That line is a huge warning right there of a lot of things to come.  Not just how maybe be trying to live up to a fairy tale ideal might not be healthy but because of where it takes her in the end.
It's important to note how fantastical these events are in Utena's memory compared to what really happened but we'll get there when we get there. 

We're then introduced to Wakaba standing on a bridge waiting for Utena to be found out that she was ditched and has to race to catch up with her.  This seems like an odd scene because that's not like Utena to ditch a friend but it really wraps up their friendship for the whole series.  Sometimes they are close and other times Utena has run off ahead on her own.  

We then see our title heroine being yelled at by a school faculty member for wearing a boy's uniform to which Utena politely excuses because there isn't a rule saying that she can't.  Her uniform though still doesn't even look like the school uniform the boys are wearing, shouldn't she at least be wearing the school's uniform?  I guess there isn't a rule on that but it works for making her outfit a foreshadowing tool.  That's right, her clothing is a symbol of events to come in how it is very similar in design to the Rose Bride's gown.

We see Utena then performing some very male activities such as beating the boys basketball team (single-handling) but then declining invite to join the team because she is a girl.  Before we are introduced to Anthy, Saionji, and Touga outside of the Rose Garden.  Wakaba introduces these characters.  Touga gets framed by white roses (possibly for his "pure" action of saving Anthy from another slap) while Saionji is framed by his signature green flowers.

We are then introduced to the student council and their meeting area.  Here we meet Miki (framed by blue roses) and Juri (framed by orange roses).  Saionji is being called out for how he treats the Rose Bride, while this conversation in dialogue establishing the duels and how Anthy is the Rose Bride and how she is passed along, there is much to read from the characters themselves in this scene.  
Miki's dramatic stopping of his stopwatch at the declaration of love from Saionji to Anthy.  Juri's sweet smile to Miki which quickly changes to a glare of disgust at Touga as he steps up to speak.  Even how serious Touga's face gets at Saionji as he waves off the notion of a new duelist coming.  

How awesome Akio is for manipulating events to know that Utena would challenge Saionji.  Could somehow he have planted something to motivate Wakaba to write that love letter?  Wakaba publicly denies her interest in him, even what we hear in the letter is more of a genuine "I would love to be there for you" than "I love you."  She had the comfort of claiming Utena as her boyfriend, so Akio must have moved her into making the move that would motivate Utena.

Shadow girls A-Ko and B-Ko give us light foreshadowing that Utena has signed herself up for something more than a simple duel for her friend's honor in their dialogue.  

The castle in the sky!  Saionji calls it out as being a mirage.  Geez Saionji, spoiler alert!  The first time I heard him say that, it didn't click for me but on rewatch it very much did because it IS simply a mirage.  And yet no one listened to Saionji.  No one ever does.

Anthy's actions in preparing the duel seem so sweet and harmless, yet what she does is on purpose to upset Saionji to further push Utena's drive to defeat a man who she feels treats women so badly.  Utena doesn't even realize how Anthy is pushing Saionji's buttons to upset him on purpose.  
This doesn't excuse Saionji's hitting but it really shows how well Anthy reads people and manipulates them.  Utena was new to the battle arena and could have turned around to leave the two weirdos in the battle arena so Anthy pushed Saionji's buttons keeping Utena involved.
Let's talk about the duel song for a minute too.  When, Where, Who, Which.  Which witch?  Play on words maybe?  So subtle.  Could it really be a play on what is later revealed about the Rose Bride?  
Utena gets her buttons pushed by Saionji through banter during the duel, fueling her and reminding her of the prince who inspired her bringing her to victory.  Anthy then throws salt on Saionji's wound by smiling and calling him her classmate instead of her engaged as she had previously.  This devastates Saionji and Anthy knows it.  She knew it was going to before she even said it.  Her grin went from light to bright as she paused before calling him her classmate.  She really just stomped all over him without having to raise a hand to do so.  It could be seen as simply how she is no longer his engaged but she really seemed to get some personal satisfaction out of that blow.  Saionji seriously just got slapped by Anthy and you don't even see her move a muscle.



From this day forward, I belong to you. 



Images courtesy of Ohtori.nu

Friday, January 10, 2014

Costume Ideas

I have new glasses so now I've been thinking of what kind of costumes that I could wear centered around these cuties.  I'm also open to suggestions.

The Rose Bride - Anthy Himemeya
I'll seriously have to tan myself up before.

Professor Sybill Trelawney
I think I'd have too much fun as her.

Janis Joplin
Okay, so maybe those are sunglasses but I can make it work.

Ami Mizuno
The shy and intellectual girl who transforms into Sailor Mercury.  

Daria Morgendorffer
I would love this one.

Lady Une
The hair.  The ruffles.  Hrrrrmmmmm....

Sir Integra Hellsing
Oh yes, that would be fun.

Hikaru Amano
Oh she would just be darling to do!  

Fuu Houoji
Oh and I could do the cute hair curls and swoon over Ferio..

Thursday, January 9, 2014

Writing Prompt: 10 Years Ago

Find a photo of yourself taken 10 years ago and display it on your blog along with a current photo. How have you changed since the day that photo was taken?


2004, I still didn't have any degree to my name other than my high school diploma.  I still lived at home with my parents.  The beginning half of the year was spent working at Pizza Hut and the end was Wendy's.  I spent most of my time working or on the computer.  Myspace was cool and I played GaiaOnline.  I still had a livejournal.  I was hoping to late-bloom and get a sudden boost of bigger boobs.  

2014, I have two degrees completed.  I live in a condo with my husband and daughter.  I work as a paraprofessional at a county public school.  I keep busy still with work but also do crafts and clubs now.  Do people even have Myspace anymore?  There are many available options for social networking that all depend on what kind of flavor you're looking for.  I had a daughter and grew bigger boobs. 


Was it really 10 years?  It feels so far away but I've done a lot.


Mama’s Losin’ It

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

GELDS: SS3.4a

CD-SS3 – The child will demonstrate awareness of the geography in his/her community.
CD-SS3.4a Creates simple representations of home, school and community.
WSO: Describes the location of things in the environment.

 Activities: Paper Bag Houses.  Children color what the outside of their house looks like on the outside of their bag.  Cut along the right side and across the top of paper bags so that they open.  Children then can draw the rooms inside their house.
Pete's School.  Glue two file folders to each other.  On each open fold, students create a room of the school.  They can use this file folder creation as background to for rebelling Pete the Cat Rockin' in His School Shoes.
Community Map.  Place blocks equal to the number of students participating on butcher paper.  Tape a marker or crayon to the back of a toy car.  Have each student "drive" the car across the paper to the next block.  The student identifies what neighborhood point-of-interest it is.  While the next student "drives the car to the next block, the previous student removed the block to draw the business in it's place.  This community map can be laminated for continued play within the block area.

Books: In a People House by: Dr Seuss
Kindergarten Rocks by: Katie Davis
Aaron's Hair by: Robert Munsch

GELDS: CLL3.4a

CLL3 – The child will use nonverbal communication for a variety of purposes.
CLL3.4a Uses more complex gestures and actions to enhance verbal communication of needs and wants.

WSO: Represents ideas and stories through pictures, dictation, and play. (That's the official WSO correlation as posted by Bright from the Start)

This is really something that must be demonstrated to students rather than taught.  This is demonstrating body language, sign language, and verbal inflection that enhance our communication.

GELDS: SC2.4b

CD-SC2 – The child will demonstrate knowledge related to the dynamic properties of earth and sky.
CD-SC2.4b Explores and begins to describe properties of rocks, soil, sand and mud.
WSO: Explores rocks, water, soil, and sand.

Activities: Terrarium.  Working alongside the students, build a terrarium or other observable habitat using the items listed.
Grow a Seed.  Plant the same type of seed in containers of each.  Allow for students to observe and record their observations.

Books: Dirt the scope on soil by: Natalie Rosansky
If You Find a Rock by: Peggy Christian
Sea, Sand, and Me by: Patricia Hubbell